The fear of losing me…

Image

You can pretend I’m a bad girl
You can pretend I’m a good girl
But whatever I got, you know you want it
Whatever you need, you know I got you

You can pretend that I broke your heart
But you know, it was never right from the start

You know you were betraying another to have me, but
you’d betray yourself not to pursue me, so
you did
and the timing was…
and the rest is history…

Your story…

Tell it how you please
It really doesn’t bother me
Paint pictures and tell the world that Shila wasn’t everything,
it’s funny to me
you prolonged this experience until I couldn’t,
but I wasn’t?

It’s eating you up not to know why I left, so
you provide a fake truth
to cover up the way you really feel

You know I’m down for the cause
and NOT just because I’m broken-hearted,
running from the past, and lonely

I really loved you
and I’m really strong
and I really held you down when you had nothing

and you know it

But do as you please
in your dreams, you remember me…
Say my name,
or don’t

I’m still here, and

I’m from the Jungle,
I know the deal

and you and I
know the real

Whatever you like, though
Proceed

Did you forget?
You’re from the Jungle too

Let that fear go, the e go
and let’s eat

at ease.

by Shila Iris

 

The other side of life,
I’m so grateful!

Fruit

Image

Sucking the seed of a mango I learned to kiss
Tasting the sweet water in melons I learned to tap into the flavor of life,
succulent nectar dripping from each experience

I taste…

not caught up in his superficial
not caught up in his sex
not caught up in domination
or imposing
we are inside of each other

he is,
allowing the energy of me to permeate
as he penetrates me with words and truth

I concentrate on his vernacular and
the way he moves,
his harmonious high steps

Heaven

He balances me with oneness
telling stories of how he became
He is as grateful as I

He says,
“Be with me. Come close, stay close.”

There is nothing between us
that we cannot speak

He,
I breathe

“You have given me something
that I have wanted forever,” he says,

“even before I reincarnated”

We are attracting the things we need to ascend

I have felt peace,
and now I know of it

going, moving forward, and backwards,
and sideways

I will find a way to see you…

always.
In each life.

goddess cyphering

by Shila Iris

The Closer We…

Image

I am amazed at how with him I can speak
I can speak strong and passionately
I can be expressive and loud,
and still and quiet
anyway, I want to be,
he embraces my All

Why?

He’s so secure within himself,
he encourages it

Yes.

He encourages my existence as a woman,
but moreso my existence as a
divine presence ascending

Up, up, up and away.

He doesn’t see me as being against him
He knows that I am for him
He knows that I adore him
He knows from where I come

He says, “lift your voice and sing.”

He and I take pleasure
in healthy and peaceful conversation
He and I take pleasure
in knowing and growing

We get even better, even hotter,
even toned, we,
are two sides of the same coin, we
toss and turn, and take risks
And at night, we return, we
convene, we
demonstrate, we
heal and find flow
so that in the morning we can co-create

He wants me to have a choice.

He isn’t interested in a woman who lies down
An actress,

doing things that turn her into a machine
He isn’t interested in a woman
“who knows how to treat a man”
Because he knows that the things men have

been taught to do are far from godly
are far from creating balance,
are far from harmonious living,
these oppressive trifles,
a performance full of comfortable distractions on the road to demise

I treat him like the god that he is
and so he goes deep within,
looking behind my eyes

He knows why the caged bird sings.

He wants me,
not for how willingly I can submit,
he wants me to be free, and
he knows that when I am uplifted,
my magic comes alive
He is, the B side to my A
Our records spinning
There’s no pretending
No disappearing, no MIA

His security is full of love
I feel safe even in his absence
He’s in my mind,
he came on time,
he’s big, he’s small, he’s fine
Fine in a way that ever so liberates
And as much stimulates,
I’ll give him what he needs
I’ll cover him when he bleeds
I’ll nurture his seeds, indeed
He is more than a man
I choose.
———-
So glad that life is like the ocean
The tide comes in, oh the lessons we learn
The patience, the wisdom that comes when you seek it
————
He doesn’t tell me how to live my life
He listens and inquires and gives
He comes closer, so close I can feel his heartbeat
He wants to know how I became what I am
and I want to know him too
With no compromise

He is like the clouds in the sky
Shapeshifting, but consistent
He hears me.
Loud and clear.
He asks, “are you with me?”
I say, “I have always been with you.
I do.”

So the proverb is true

The man that silences a woman,
silences himself.

and so we both speak
with no measure, he

has reminded me of what love can do.

The closer we get.

by Shila Iris